6 Feet and Beyond ⚰️🥀

Lately this topic of death has been creeping around my bubble. With the loss of the missing kid in UK “Richard Okorogheye” and then DMX just days apart, I already was in a pretty gloomy state of mind… I hate how death has to be a reminder of how fickle and “pointless” life really is.. young, old, healthy, sick ? You’re not exempt from death. It has no ratings for anyone

I remember once upon a time shortly after I lost my dad to be specific the thought of death was just like a dark…


There really is something up with me and 3am 😅, lately I find myself slipping and going back to some old habits I tried so hard to let go. Like this sleeping late of a thing amongst other vices I let go…I’ve just got a lot going on up here and I find the dead of the night a really calm time to just think and plan… anyway that’s a silly explanation as to why I’m awake but here we are

I feel lately I’ve done a good amount of over sharing with “friends” and I feel I’ve been untrue…


My journal entries these days have been in the dead of night for some weird reason 😅. This particular night I’m coming down from an opioid buzz. I needed the painkillers cos I felt like absolute shit…. Sooo i am very in touch with my feelings and something I’ve spoken to a couple of friends and older cousins about “building” has just been lingering on my mind

Now I’m going to be using this word “naive” a lot cos maybe I really just am… haven’t been a relationship since 2016/17 ish so maybe I really am out of touch with…


Consistency

Consistency

It’s dead in the a.m. 3 ish, can’t sleep so I’ve done a meditation session and this is all I could pull from the experience. Consistency

I’ve come to realize consistency keeps me grounded. My new found routines and patterns have put me in a space mentally where I’m beginning to identify things, people and behaviors that help me maintain consistency.. I feel at my best when there’s a level of regularity in certain areas of my life.. no longer with the on and off situations, habits and people!

Not too long ago I wrote about losing my…


Only started immersing myself into meditating a couple of weeks ago, previously I’d just dabble into it and lose interest. I felt it was all about staying in one position or just listening to sounds to calm you down. My mindset about it from the jump was just gutter…. Couple months down the line I find myself in a YouTube rabbit hole getting information about what it was, why people did it and how it could be helpful in reducing stress. Now I’m drawn in and i find myself actually trying out some of the techniques…

What i can tell…

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