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Only started immersing myself into meditating a couple of weeks ago, previously I’d just dabble into it and lose interest. I felt it was all about staying in one position or just listening to sounds to calm you down. My mindset about it from the jump was just gutter…. Couple months down the line I find myself in a YouTube rabbit hole getting information about what it was, why people did it and how it could be helpful in reducing stress. Now I’m drawn in and i find myself actually trying out some of the techniques…

What i can tell…


“Real Friends, how many of us? Its not many of us”

Have you ever been around people and still felt completely alone and secluded? I feel a lot of people are lonely and don’t even recognize it. Knowing people you keep in touch with is far from the ballpark of actual friendships if we’re being sincere.

Friendships should be mutually beneficial relationships where the parties involved feel seen, heard and can be completely vulnerable in a safe and gratifying way.. …


Excerpts from Atomic Habits

I started this entry a couple of days into the month(June 🤦🏽‍♂️) but for some weird reason I've just felt so uninspired to write anything down… life has been lifeing and the world still turning but i am indeed grateful to have made it this far into the moiety sane, positive and still very into my practices and I've even had the blessing to stack onto these habits and create a functional pattern that has served me well so far…

June has been an amazing month and its only right it ends on a high note…


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Another Father’s day has come upon us, i never really used to pay this day any mind cos to me it’s just a regular day even when my father was alive, it was just like any other day except the morning “Happy Fathers Day” text message he got😅 … he wasn’t one to feel a way if he did or didn’t receive any fathers day loving or gifts from any of his children still.. he was the absolute definition of “Cool as ice” and his birthday interestingly is just a couple of days after fathers day.

Since his untimely demise…


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Manifestation and the Power of Thoughts.

In the past couple of weeks, i have done a lot of research on “The Law of Attraction” research in terms of reading a couple of books like the infamous “Money and the Law of Attraction” by Esther and Jerry Hicks which i remember reading a couple of years ago but for some reason just felt more relevant to me at this present moment in my life. i also read “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne which was also an amazing read, i saw a number of TED talks on this law too. …


I remember about 3 posts ago i was writing about over sharing and i started with how i noticed myself going back to old patterns and habits i let go…. at first it was my sleeping pattern that i worked so hard to fix up… Started by losing few hours but it got to a point of insomnia some weeks ago… the antianxiety and antidepressants aren't doing their thing anymore, even tried some of my moms sleeping meds and to no avail you know?

Anyway, i feel like complete shit today, i have been irregular with my meditations. i broke…


6 Feet and Beyond ⚰️🥀

Lately this topic of death has been creeping around my bubble. With the loss of the missing kid in UK “Richard Okorogheye” and then DMX just days apart, I already was in a pretty gloomy state of mind… I hate how death has to be a reminder of how fickle and “pointless” life really is.. young, old, healthy, sick ? You’re not exempt from death. It has no ratings for anyone

I remember once upon a time shortly after I lost my dad to be specific the thought of death was just like a dark…


There really is something up with me and 3am 😅, lately I find myself slipping and going back to some old habits I tried so hard to let go. Like this sleeping late of a thing amongst other vices I let go…I’ve just got a lot going on up here and I find the dead of the night a really calm time to just think and plan… anyway that’s a silly explanation as to why I’m awake but here we are

I feel lately I’ve done a good amount of over sharing with friends and I feel I’ve been untrue…


My journal entries these days have been in the dead of night for some weird reason 😅. This particular night I’m coming down from an opioid buzz. I needed the painkillers cos I felt like absolute shit…. Sooo i am very in touch with my feelings and something I’ve spoken to a couple of friends and older cousins about “building” has just been lingering on my mind

Now I’m going to be using this word “naïve” a lot cos maybe I really just am… haven’t been a relationship since 2016/17 ish so maybe I really am out of touch with…


It’s dead in the a.m. 3 ish, can’t sleep so I’ve done a meditation session and this is all I could pull from the experience. Consistency

I’ve come to realize consistency keeps me grounded. My new found routines and patterns have put me in a space mentally where I’m beginning to identify things, people and behaviors that help me maintain consistency.. I feel at my best when there’s a level of regularity in certain areas of my life.. no longer with the on and off situations, habits and people!

Not too long ago I wrote about losing my essence and…

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